Wow

today i was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy. holy fuck. its incredible what an hour with you can do for me. i havent felt this good for so long. the empty feeling in my chest is not longer there. today  i felt my heart beat. thats a first. i didnt even feel like i had one for the longest time. theres only one word to describe how you make me feel. extacy... but better. much better :)