today

i realized something. I'm nothing. I am a walking piece of meat occupying space on this planet for the short amount of time i live. if you can call it living at this point. more like existing. i exist to age and create more existence. hopefully life. i wouldn't wish this shit on my worst enemy. as melodramatic as this whole thing sounds, i speak with knowledge of children fighting wars they didn't start. people dying of disease and starvation on a minute to minute basis. i'm not asking for sympathy. im asking for understanding. i exist to grow old and die. but thank god, that i can exist in the same lifetime as someone as amazing as you.