pathetic.

i discust myself.
i found a card from my teacher at my expulsion program.
it said,
"Short term pain for long time gain. Be a two marshmellow kid."
he told me of a study done on children.
researchers gave multiple children a marshmellow.
the children were told that they were to be left alone in the room for 10 minutes.
those who waited to eat their marshmellow would receive a second one.
some children ate theirs right away. some waited a bit and then ate them. some danced or coloured or sang and waited it out.
The children were visited years later.
the children who waited were in most cases wealthy with many long term buissiness investments.
the children who ate their marshmellows were in 100% of the cases drugs addicts of the hopeless kind.
im sorry loyd. im not cut out to be a two marshmellow kid.